::doing the running man::

Remember when I posted in my 100 things post about having knots in my stomach just thinking about Mother's Day? Well, they're still there. My stomach hurts just thinking about walking in church, seeing all the young mommy's so happy with their babies (and boy do we have ALOT at my church), receiving whatever beautiful thing they're handing out at the door for them, giving testimonies about their happy lives (not saying mine isn't happy, it's just missing something). I know this sounds completely selfish, maybe even foolish, but i've gone to too many of these services and put on a very big smile and have been genuinely happy for all of them. but. I just can't this time.

Soooooo........

I'm not even sure if Matt knows how i'm feeling or maybe he's feeling the same way, but we made plans. And I'm excited!

That Saturday we're going to Palm Springs, checking in our beautiful hotel room -that we JUST booked!- hang out, swim, lay out, eat, relax(!), then go to our niece's birthday party (in Palm Springs). After the party we'll go back to our hotel, spend the night and in the morning we'll take his mom out for breakfast. She lives in the next city over. Then we'll go to my grandma's house where all my sisters and my mom will be. Perfect!

Check out our bomb diggity hotel!

as if i'm really going to cook something! It's still nice to look at!


It's a suite!

That pool is calling my name...